Bitter Cold

No love of mine could ever give
What you require of me
No amount of reaching
And no amount of crying out
Could get me to where you want me

A loneliness entrenches my heart so deep
One that no one on earth can fill
And I'm abandoned by the world
The world that I left behind
And I lie dormant under Life

What has called me to be here?
And what will I make of it?
These questions constantly perplex me
Because I can't fulfill it with my selfishness
And my selfishness seems to be all I know

How can I feel I do so much
When the person I am is asleep?
How can I feel so lighthearted
When sin always weighs me down?
God, you made my heart weightless

My skin is lying in the cold
Where it's torn at and frozen
It's frostbitten and black
It's bitter and restless
And on the inside, there's a war

My heart fights to spread warmth
My blood struggles against solidifying
I'm shivering, wanting it to end
I'm wanting to fall asleep
And never wake up again

God awaken me
Awaken my soul
Wrap me up
In your love
It gives me warmth

My heart is surrendered to you...take it, and shape it.