The Showdown

Metaphorical darkness shrouds this room
It's filled to it's rim, and flowing over on all sides
With a single source of light attempting to grow
To spread
The metaphorical darkness is gaining control of the scene
As the light tries to grow

"You will not surpress me!" Screams the light.
But the darkness yells back, "You are weak, little light. Become part of the darkness, and you will have overwhelming power, such as that of which we bear."

The light dims at the words, but still tries
The darkness presses on, "You are nothing. You can't light up this mass of darkness, you might as well give up."

The light lessens, and is getting weaker. It is nearly taken out, like a candles' flame blown off the wick, and the wick is left with smoke in remembrance of the flame.

The darkness sways and stirs. It grows thicker than blood. To wade in it would be as wading against a river's current. The room is bitterly cold. The darkness closes in on the light as the ocean swallows the shore. Inching and inching. Pressing and pressing. Slow. Painfully agitating the light in it's patient, but pressuring accusation.

But an outside light pours in, and the darkness does not understand it. It scurries, and leaps for the nearest caverns.

The light that was once small is revived by the greater one, and is brightened.
"Oh, greater light. Always be here with me." Says the lesser light.
"I will be here. I am everywhere. But you will not always feel me. Those times will help your light to grow and function with a greater luminosity." Says the greater light. It then gives a departing kiss, and leaves a shimmering trail. The lesser light is left to fend for the light, only strong enough by the power of the vital part of it given by the greater light.
Ready for another showdown of darkness.

The Sun Deceives.

I've been given a threshold of Joy
It gently kisses my heart
And one is all I need
To be freed from my numbness

The night tells me to retire
But my heart doesn't quit
So I tell the night off
And it tells me farewell

The next day brings more sunlight
More illumination than usual
This simply can't be a normal day
This day holds something of secrecy

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My theory is proven
And the day rejects the dawn
The sun hides from it's unbearable shame
And I curse at the moon
For the moon hid this secret from me

I knew it by my tears
For my tears held the answer
They too betrayed me
For they knew it
But merely hinted me

I eavesdropped on the pain
For I could not have it kept from me
Because I might not deal with it later
I couldn't let denial set in
But denial did tempt me

So now that I know
The sun cannot hide any longer
But it can deceive me to believe
That the weather has changed
Because, in fact it has not

So here I rest in my cold skin
I tell the sun it is a liar
And it bears the blame
For it cannot warm this cold skin
And so I sit here and shiver

And the sun doesn't represent the day.

My heart is constrained
In my constricted bones
And near my exhaling lungs
Because I can't feel you inside
And I can't seem to pray
Music about you merely resonates through my ears
But fails to resonate in my heart
I know you are listening
But I can't feel you inside
My soul is deprived
And I'm lapping up your words
But this time they don't quench my thirst

Sometimes we grope at you aimlessly
When we can't feel your heart
Sometimes we feel our hearts are bricks inside
When you have made your house within
Sometimes we feel our eyes are too dry to express it
Even our hearts can't seem to sob
Dear God, if anything, give me pain
I'd rather feel pain than this empty numbness
I'd rather cry than to laugh at this time
Because pain benefits me more than happiness

Tear me down, Father. And break my heart

Night Melody

I look out on the vista
Abstract in comparison to others I've seen
New skies don't swirl
And sunsets don't always have green

The grass tickles my bare feet
I slightly wince, but I take delight
Soon this sun will hide
Soon the moon will bore the night

The sun burrows itself in the ground
The skies are missing it already
They are still cheering
Still pursuing the sun, but now ready

The sky says it's last goodbyes
And gives greeting to the lesser light
A drifting night wind welcomes goose flesh
And the moon shines with it's gleaming might

The trees sway to the gentle melody of the calm night
And the stars twinkle in tune
I strain my ear to hear them beckoning a song
The trees partner with the grass

The moon shies away behind the dark out-of-contrast clouds
But the trees still dance, and the waters join in

The breeze whistles the tune
The locust catches on, and the owls hum with him

I call out to the moon, "Oh please, will you join us?"
But the moon's gleam is faint behind the stubborn cloud
It makes an attempt to show itself
But that stubborn cloud made itself a shroud

We sing louder, we sing to the melancholic blackness above
Till the clouds will part
And the moon illuminates our freedom melody
This song won't end, it's merely the start

A long night rests ahead, and we will not give, we tell the clouds
They at last change their brightness to match the moon
And divide themselves into speckled bits of cotton
And the moons light shines, and we dance with him

The friend we all search for

When you have no one else
Do you know I'm still here?

When your heart is breaking
Do you know that I can

mend it?

When everyone lets you down
Do you know that I can pick you up?

When you feel you have not a friend
Do you know that I want your friendship?

When you feel lonely

Do you know that I am always here?

When you are crying
Do you know I can wipe your tears?

When you are afraid
Do you know that I'm here to remove that fear?

When you are desperate
Do you know that I'm here to cure your desperation?

If you know these things, why don't you let Me work through you?
Your hurting will always lead you to Me, if you let me take you in My arms.

Don't hold in these feelings anymore...be honest with Me.
Cry, scream, and yell your frustration with the world to Me, and know that I feel the same.